I finally got what I always wanted. I've never been more scared in my life- its easier to be complacent

I love you more today- not because of who you are but because of who you've allowed me to be.

I've lived a lifetime with you before now- you just dont remember me. We used to dance alone and talk until sunrise. You loved me. I watched you sleep and held your heart. Your voice reminded me of home, soothed my troubled soul. You loved me. We ran away, became something new. I held your hand until you were no longer afraid. You etched my face in your mind vowing to never forget what love looked like. Oh how you loved me. I breathed you, wanted you under my skin, wanted two to become one, moments without you- cruel punishment. I loved you. I felt you everywhere. The trees whispered your name. The wind carried your scent. My new obsession, a theif of rationality. Oh how I loved you. I lived a lifetime with you before now- you just dont remember me.

The idea of true love scares me so much that I would almost rather be alone. I hope you change my mind.

Today words fail me. When things are in order writers block sets in. My creative juices only flowing when I am covered by a blanket of lachrymose melancholy. But today is different. My heart is light, my mind is clear. Today I smile, thankful for the present. Thankful for right now,thankful for a moment free of presentiment. Thankful for You...

The pain must run deep for you to be so shallow...

I'm not...anymore. Thank you for finding me