I did some reading today- random articles, fellow bloggers updates and they all had one thing in common: they talked about love. Maybe its just that Valentines day is around the corner or maybe its the cold weather. You know cold weather makes you wish you had someone to snuggle up to ;) So I figured I might as well jump on the bandwagon and speak on the subject as well.
Love is such a strange thing. We long for it, we chase it, we idolize it. Then once we have it, we blame it for our mistakes, hate it for making us weak. I used to love this boy. I did everything aside from screaming from the rooftops to get him to love me too. When I realized that he wouldn't I was so mad at myself. I just couldn't understand why I counldn't stop feeling for him. Then I read something today. The article was talking with a woman who had recently gotten a divorce. She was saying that the hardest thing about leaving her husband was that she was not ready to stop loving him yet. It was like a lightbulb went off in my head. When we complain about an unwanted emotion, many times we are not ready to give that emotion up. It's like we need that emotion to feel alive, to feel normal or maybe to just feel. But I know now that I am ready to stop loving and nurturing something that can never grow. I will not be mad anymore, I will no longer hold on to guilt and hurt. I am ready to be free.

Sisters

On the 15th of January Alpha Kappa Alpha turned 100 years old!! It was a great night. You know a lot of people have really negative attitudes about greek life. I admit, there are times where you are like "wow, is it really worth all this?" But then you have times where you realize why you joined the organization to begin with. There is something special about being a part of something where everyone is so different yet shares a common bond. I love being able to meet someone for the first time and call her sister. Alpha Kappa Alpha has been in my heart for a long time- I feel so privileged to be able to say that I am a part of an organization that is so great!

A new year a new me!! Thats my motto for 2008! You know women are always saying "I need a makeover" or " I need a new hairdo, outfit, ect." While I am guilty of making these statments as well, I think its time for me to make myself over from the inside. I'm ready for a change. I find myself restless, waiting, sitting on the edge of my seat- but for what I am not sure. I feel that I need to shed this skin and get into something new. So that has been my project for the last couple of months. I've always wanted to get my PhD in psychology so I've been applying to schools, looking for jobs, apartments. It feels good! I feel like I am on my way to do something that I can be proud of :)